There’s no need to twist yourself in knots. You’re tattered or torn but you’re not defeated. You’re so much stronger than you think you are. You can over come anything you put your mind to. Look for the little things that nurture your soul. Wash your hands clean and allow yourself to start over again where you can share your wisdom.
You have the love and compassion for everyone else, but continue to deny yourself the one thing you dream of the most. Why do you keep putting yourself last on the list? Sacrificing everything so others can find their happiness? Stop and think how your dreams might be the same dreams others have, but only if you’re in it with them.
Maybe your journey is to be shared along side someone special. Someone who need to you to talk with. Who shares the same passion and wants to share the same adventures. You make those desires a reality if you’re not willing to let go and move on. You’re being pushed, because you keep refusing to make the change. Stop it! And help the process along so you’re not losing more than you have to.